yan JUn

2010-09-07T11:23:00.000+08:00

this blog is like dead i this few weeks damn no mood to post anything ps luh.... gonna add a song inside thats all.. this blog is offically closed =)

aches

2010-08-23T16:19:00.002+08:00

neck ache
shoulder ache
hand ache
leg ache
back ache
muscle ache
heart ache

serioulsly wad could go worst. i lied to u saying i have forgotten u.. To forget u isint
difficult. those times... its possible.. but the feelings it carried are drawn down inside
of me like tatoo.. its not that easy to forget.. thats wad i learn.. im gonna "forget" u
as i could make u happy.. i would do anything to make u happy.. even if i have to hide
one corner to not let u see me.. i will get away from ur sight.. like a shadow.. i will follow u..
i will be there for u. and i wont be noticed by u.. i love u.. ur not perfect.. but wad u have is
all i ever need.. u dun need to be perfect to be with someone u like. u just have to try.
i wont let u go.. im serious..

what the

2010-08-17T17:54:00.002+08:00

wanted to post tml when i get my results. But to many things happened
and i need a place to trash everything out. here is the place.

First. oral is tomorrow i am damn freaking freaked out. i need to calm down.
i need to think things in a proper way. i need to use my head.

next i am damn freaking stressed out by my studies. i need to focus. seriously.

finally. i hurt u more then u hurt me. i wont forget u. dun even try. pls.

thats all ba.

You seem true.

2010-08-12T19:08:00.003+08:00

Your promise u said to me seem to be kept.
so i will break mine and stay by u. u have cough
get well soon i guess. and i'm fine no worries. =)

today i had a normal day? well it went quite smooth thats for sure.
what wasnt great was that i had some skills 3 exam. Dunno what to write.
yet didnt write rubbish =) acomplishment i guess.. xDD after that went to
serve some idoitic SIP.. for being late for class after recess.. 2 hrs..
one more to go next monday.. JY?? LOLx. went to collect my specs and
now i look kinda retarded. =D lols but still gonna wear it nomatter =D

JOKES

A convo btwn Man and God,
Man: god what is a million years to u?
God: its like a minute.
Man: then what is a million dollars to u?
God: well its like 10 cents to me.
Man: God then can u spare me 10 cents?
God: sure why not. give me a minute to find it.

XDD

maybe not

2010-08-10T10:04:00.002+08:00

u asked me turn back. saying u will change. u will not treat me
coldly. i will believe u and turn back and give u this chance to
make me break my heart again. i'm not sure if it will break. but
i'm willing to give u this chance also for me to break my promise
of leaving u. i want to break this promise. how? treat me like a
friend. a friend where u will tell him about ur feelings, ur problems
and ur joys. i want u to share ur situation with me. will u? i will give
u time to slowly prove urself. i want to believe in u that u will be
able to do it. if u are i will continue to stay by u knowing that i will
not hurt u even if i stay by u. if not. i'm sorry, i will leave u. i know u
read this blog. and i hope u continue reading.

SEVOL

LAST POST

2010-08-08T17:31:00.002+08:00

i decided. TO leave u now. nvr to come back. Reason?
well it seems to me that my presence would only means
saddness to u and that there is no point in staying by u
trying to make u happy as i am the main source of saddness
u are experiencing. i will leave u. i wont return. i wont change
my mind. i will hurt u. so what i am alr hurting u right now
juz a little more and it would be the end of ur sufferings
i cant think of any other way. if u can tell me. pls i hate
to leave u. but i hate it more to see u sad.

yrroSmAI

2010-06-21T12:01:00.002+08:00

went KL for the past few days.. had great fun =) haha
quite nice there.. main purpose is to find my
grandfather's father's tomb.. haha found it..
surprised.. lols.. yeah thats abt all ba..

since u hate me so much continue to hate me.. hate me as much as u like.. i still love u..
and if u start liking me i will make sure u like me forever.

2010-06-12T22:20:00.002+08:00

hey yo.. back blogging.. past few days didnt blog coz

i was busy playing maple.. =P yeah.. haha.. couldnt

get any lamer i know.. but seriously bored =D so

yeah.. haha.. well recently went to cousin house

to play.. like mad!! first went to movies..

karate kid at 10.45 AM! then went to jurong east/west

swimming complex to swim.. the facilities there were

like a miniature wild wild wet lo.. then stayed over night at his house..

lols was not bad la.. fun.. haha

i will not lose any hope for i know u will still fall for me one day when that day come i will catch u when u fall for me

2010-06-03T14:45:00.002+08:00

-----02june-----
today morning no school..
school started at 1.. in the end?
i still late =,= yeah me =D
some what like my mother..
forever wont early de=X haha
so.. dun blame me =P i got de genes
from here =b hehe .. ya.. so morning
had breakfast then did laundry..
if i dun do i wont have any pants to wear le..
._. its time to buy pants.. every time buy
shirt nvr buy pants =.=
lols.. school totally sian lo! listen zaidi..
talktalktalktalk.... totally didnt get wad she said..
then went home haha!! then its boring life le...
sit in front of comp watch anime..
NOLIFE... where my life run to??
choing finish o levels then go find ^^

-----03june----

today school starts at 8.. expected time to
wake up... 6.30.. in the end woke up at 5.30 so
cfm go back slp ma.. who knows.. going back slp was
a terrible idea.. in the end woke up at 7.30..
i was like"GG choing ah...." then i took my time haha
slowly slowly eat breakfast.. then walk...
walk halfway then say cedric!! didnt expect la.. then i was like..
early hor?... haha ya quite early.. 7.45 only... lols then
strolled slowly to school.. nvr late.. haha
started with ss.. teacher was damn angry..
ck nvr do wad he was asked to do.. wj set up av stuff
set up half way run away.. hais.. this class no sense of
responsibility sia.. haha
i was punching holes for wksht teacher say want to prevent
me form slping.. excusses ._. lols
then break.. then eng was totally crap.. then math..
also crap.. so in short.. tdy is crap.. craped up la tdy.. crap tdy la
lols crappy life =)

2010-06-01T18:40:00.002+08:00

hmm.... today was great i guess? haha
the timetable was totally messed up.. =)
8-9 and 9-10 was history... for my class
10-1330 was break =)) how great was that..
then supposed to be 1330-1730 math..
teacher completed early.. ended at 1530 =))
even better.. haha

during the break me..ck..cn went to dons house..
played winning 11 (very old version xD ) i was so
totally not interested.. look out of his window..
saw ppl playing tennis.. more interesting.. haha..
after that went to play wii.. hmm ok i guess.. lols

this past few days.. i have been abit like dun care abt u..
why? cause i dun wan to burden u. i wan u to be free..
im letting u go.. yet im watching over u.. wanting u
to come back to me someday.. ill wait..

2010-05-31T14:01:00.002+08:00

well.. all i can say is past few days didnt blog..
why?? coz im preparing for o levels mt..
now that its over.. phew than slack..
haha.. and and and.. selling chinese mid year
o levels question paper anyone?? haah..
kidding~

lols should end here ba.. lols nothing to post about
today..

2010-05-27T13:54:00.002+08:00

today im very very very happy..
coz u smiled at me finally.. a true
genuine smile.. one that i haven see
in quite some time.. and plus ytd
when i told u i was in pain u told
me to take care not good luck.. i
knew u still care abt me.. and u txt
me even after i didnt reply coz i was
aslp alrdy.. u asked me if i was slping
soon.. u seriously still care abt me..
im seriously very glad and touched
at the same time.. im happy u
were there for me.. thx a lot..
cant thank u enough for wad u done
for me.. =D remember i still love u..

IWILLLETYOUGOYETIWONTLETYOUOUTOFMYSIGHT
IWILLNOTFORCEYOUTOBEWITHMEBUTIWILLBEWATCHINGOVERYOULIKEANANGEL.

tag me if u cant break the words

2010-05-26T15:12:00.002+08:00

do u really want me to move on?
if it could make u happy.. i guess that will
be wad im gonna do ba..
im gonna move on... and so be... good friends?
i hope.. friends for life i wish.. treat me as a friend..
a good friend.... thats all i asked for.. i will continue loving u
no matter wad.. and in anytime of the day u need
accompany.. im juz a text/call away..i will always be there for u.
i will always make time for u regardless of anything..
for the sole reason im breathing right now..
i may ask u to treat me as a friend.. but i do prefer u
to treat me as something more.. u should know..
but i dun wanna force u.. wad our relationship is gonna be
is entirely up to u..
FRIENDS..GOODFRIENDS..BESTFRIENDS..COUPLES..
--->
in order of preference =D

2010-05-25T16:24:00.003+08:00

today u posted "Dont ever make decisions that you think you might regret in future. THINK TWICE.Cause things that you lost may never come back again" what are u referring?
are u giving me another chance? or are u saying i no
hope of getting back with u already?
i wanna know again
i really want to know!! yet there is this
feeling inside of me telling me to forget it
u would never tell me
BUT i really wanna know...
are u forgiving me? giving me another chance??

i really want it to happen....

BUTSERIOUSLYISITPOSSIBLE?

2010-05-25T15:28:00.003+08:00

This few days... Past few days... hais...
why do u saying "dun run away from your next girl"
what are u really implying really?
are u juz saying for the sake of consoling?
it aint consoling at all in fact its very hurtful..
its like asking me to give up on u..
something that i would never do.. not in my present
life.. if you are asking me to move on i can tell
u i will not... never in fact.. i face u with a smile
daily.. every second in fact.. i did this not because u
dun affect me.. i dun wan my emotions to hurt u..
i wan u to be happy all the time... if by hating me
u would smile.. then hate me.. if by loving me would make
u smile.. then love me.. what ever u do.. juz smile.. thats all i
wanna see.. ur smile is my strength to carry on.. if u dun smile..
i will try my best to make u smile.. ur smile is all i need
to carry on.. i need ur smile.. for ur smile i would go
to any extend.. so long as u smile.. whatever i do is worth it..
juz dun ask me to like another girl for it is juz too impossible
its like asking me to not see u smile.. i cant bring myself to do that
im sorry.. i might try to "like" another girl...
but i would juz be hurting her.. u wont want that right?
juz dun say "dun run away from ur next girl" to me again alright?
it hurts deep..

IMSORRY

2010-05-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

you said your sorry for what you have done
(you done nothing wrong i was entirely at fault)..
at the moment i decided to give up on you, u told
urself to forget me(although i did not forget u)...
u cried for two days(im still bleeding right now
crying every now and then).. u told urself it may change
and waited (i wanted to tell u but i cowered).. i treated
you coldly and you thought it was the end(i didnt know how
to face you then).. i would never like you more than puppy
love(this aint true).. u succeeded in forgetting me(i dunno
to be happy or sad)..when i got the courage to confess
u was shocked(maybe i shouldent have).. accepted after
rejection is very painful(i understand i should not have
rejected you).. the feeling is unbearable(dun take it alone
i dun mind sharing it with you let it go)

IDUNMINDYOUHURTINGMEASLONGASYOUSMILE. she said (i thought)

2010-05-24T16:48:00.000+08:00

THE MISTAKE I MADE:
At first i thought u would be like juz
another girl whom i had a big crush on..
i didnt want to change your life
nor do i wan u to change mine...
i thought i would hurt u so i decided to
leave u.. unknowingly i hurt u deep..
much deeper than i have ever expected...

THE THING I LEARNT:
Your place in my heart is much more than i
had expected.. your everthing i really have..
parents dun care.. friEND dun last.. your all
i really wanted this life.. if i cant get you..
my life is juz surviving.. not living anymore..
zombie like.. looking at each day passing by..
INEEDYOU. ALLINEEDISYOU.

WHAT SHOULD I HAVE DONE:
i should have not try to let u go.. i should have
hold on to u so tight that i wont let you have a
chance to leave me.. i should have cherished you
much more.. i should have considered your feelings..
i should not think that by leaving you...
ISHOULDNOTHAVEHURTYOUEVENTHELEAST.

whats the point.. you left.. coming back?.. i hope yet doubt so
its juz so impossible after i hurt u so deep..
its like asking for forgiveness after i stabbed.. i dun
expect u to get back with me.. i juz hope you will move
on and have a great life without me hurting u..

IMSORRY.

2010-05-24T16:05:00.001+08:00

we spent march trying to get to know each other.....
we spent april having so much fun with each other...
yet we spent may saying sorry to each other.........
this sorry... will forgiveness be granted?? or will
it last all the way to june.. i really dun wan it
drag to june.. i wan to start afresh with u.. is it
possible?? or is it juz another dream of mine i dun
dare to achieve?